Swim Lessons

I've done something out of the ordinary this week. I registered for swim lessons. Yes, i found a private instructor, paid the dues, got the suit and have elimnated all the excuses I have had for years. I've had this weird fear of swimming for most of my life. When I was younger all I remember about swimming was the fact that it always resulted in me getting sick. It's funny to me to confess my fears to my instructor and for her to calm my fears and tell me how to avoid the seemingly inevitable ear infections I used to get.

What I'm sitting here pondering is where in the world did the courage come from to do that? All in one day I convinced myself to conquer this fear. Granted, I have yet to step foot in the water let along put my head under water...but, still I've made up my mind and convinced myself it is worth the investment and risk.

So, why can't I see the same worth in relationships? Sometimes the risk of pain is just too overwhelming....and paralyzing to say the least. Are there some drops you can buy, or brace you can wear to avoid pain during or after you take the risk? It would be so nice. Again, I'm faced with my unbelief. If my faith were better grounded in the character of God perhaps I wouldn't have such weak knees. He promises to walk with me through this life...through the fun and the pain in relationships. Such a reminder of how much I need to rest in Him whether the fear seems silly or paralyzing. I'm good at fear....it keeps me from so many good things in life. I pray that the Lord will help me be good at faith... I just don't want to miss out on what He has for me.